Aw crap, I went and got myself interviewed again. This time, I was interviewed by T. Mike McCurley.
Well, you might as well go have a look.
And here we go. Finally. The third and final writer commentary on my first novel, The City of Smoke & Mirrors. I’ll be honest here, folks: I’m brutally self-critical about these chapters. Particularly this book’s ending. Looking back, I hate it. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself. See for yourself when you get to my commentary on Chapters 30 & 31.
As before, a fair warning. I’m diving deep into spoiler territory here. If you haven’t read the book, I highly recommend doing so before reading this commentary.
This last time, I’m commentating on Chapters 21-33.
For almost 20 years, depression has been a major, constricting factor in my life. I was officially diagnosed with it in high school and have struggled with it ever since. Officially, my diagnosis is situational depression. Most times, I’m okay. In fact, I imagine most people wouldn’t think I have depression. I’m optimistic, joking, and an overall goofball.
When I’m depressed, though? People tell me I’m a completely different person. I’m irritable and gloomy. I withdraw, refusing to engage in conversation. Sometimes, my depression will last a day, a few days, a week, several weeks, or months at its worst. Most times, it only lasts 2-3 days before I crawl out of it.
Depression has cost me friendships and relationships. Twice, I’ve lost jobs. I’ve dropped out of university. It took me over ten years, off and on, to get my undergraduate degree.
Through the years, I’ve learned coping mechanisms. Of course, that’s not including decades of different counselors, psychologists, and psychiatrists. Or the dozens of medications that I’ve tried (you name the antidepressant, I’ve probably been on it). I’ve read several helpful books, such as David M. Burns’ Feeling Good. I recommend it anyone with depression, anxiety, or similar mental illnesses.
However, I’ve realized that even counseling and medication are unhelpful on bad days. Sometimes it’s a chore just getting out of bed. For me, these little things help me cope with depression. They may not fully break me out of the depression, but I feel a little better. Sometimes, it feels near impossible to do them. Sometimes, I’m too depressed to think of doing any of it. It happens. But when I do some of this list, I feel better. Some of these might not work for you and that’s okay.
Though they’re numbered, this list isn’t ranked in any particular order.
Yoga has been a long-time passion of mine. The first time I tried it was a half-hour exercise show that came on every morning when I was younger. It was relaxing and yet also gave me sore muscles (in a good way). My balance, flexibility, and coordination improved as I practiced yoga, using different forms, videos, or classes. Most of my learning came from videos – DVDs or websites like YouTube or Do Yoga With Me.
Over the years, I’ve also tried and enjoyed various forms of yoga: Hot Yoga, where I’m drenched in sweat and my pores feel cleansed; Yin Yoga, which is a very slow, almost meditative style that’s fantastic for relaxing at night. My favourite style, though, is Power Yoga. I love the sweat I’d get from this style. For a long time, I enjoyed a DVD hosted by yogi, Eoin Finn.
But there was always something with yoga programs that I couldn’t get into: the meditative aspect. I had a difficult time taking phrases like “find your center” seriously. Maybe it was from my years in weightlifting and wanting to focus on the workout, itself. That’s something I’d still like to work on now that I’m learning about mindfulness.
A few years ago, I discovered a yoga style that was exactly what I was looking for: DDP Yoga. It focused purely on the workout, telling you specifically what to do with your body without using weird spiritual phrasing that went over my head. Even after a 20-minute workout, I’d broken a sweat.
With the return of Top Ten Tuesday, I’d like to list Ten Reasons Why I Love DDP Yoga.
As before, this is written in point form, kind of like an IMDB page. It’s also written with the understanding that you’ve already read the book, as it’s very spoiler-heavy.
Part 2 will cover Chapters 13-20.
My second novel (and second Armadillo Mystery!), THE DAME WAS A TAD POLISH is now available. You can get it right now on Amazon.
Check out my publisher’s write-up on the new book.
It’s finally out! The Gaming Wildlife episode that I scripted!
If I’m 100% honest, myself, I’m really just looking to shamelessly promote my own work. I’m a novelist, with one book under my belt so far: THE CITY OF SMOKE & MIRRORS. It’s part of a series called The Armadillo Mysteries, starring Dilbert Pinkerton, a mutant armadillo private detective. The sequel, THE DAME WAS A TAD POLISH, is coming out this year. You can read the first chapter of DAME right here.
In the meantime, here’s the original script (and suggested photo references) for IF WWE WERE 100% HONEST WITH US. Gaming Wildlife made a few cuts, likely for time. It’s a shame because there’s some lines I wish they’d kept in, like “And yes, I made Trish Stratus bark like a dog…” Regardless, I’m very happy how this turned out. It’s even better than I expected. The actor, David Miller, knocked it out of the park.
So before we get to the script, thank you very much, Gaming Wildlife, for giving this long-time wrestling fan a chance.